I turn 17 today if you can’t guess by the title already. Anyways, this is the confusion of being 17.

Also Lana Del Rey has my heart.

At the age of 12, you wonder if you’ll ever reach 
independence large enough to get a coffee on your own
Wonder wrapped in 14 year olds when you reach the mall 
and with wide eyes you glance across the massive structure
16 is the epitome of innocence 
and between childish humour and the age of universal suffrage, 
There’s the little awkward 17. 
I dont know what to do when I turn 17
Is it a day to mourn my childhood coming to an end 
or to celebrate the nerve wracking 18?
I am closer to 20 than I am to 15 and it is not fair 
It is not possible, I know I was 14 a couple days ago
Such a weird age to be- 17.

All songs are written for you but you relate to none of them
Such carefree grandeur 
Falling in love, falling out of love
Falling in general 
But I seem to be balanced 
And yet such sadness 
And the moment I turned 17 
I understood how fickle time was
There’s so much left to explore
And it feels like I’m almost done. 
My teenage has almost come to an end, but it’s still there. 
Almost- that is the word to explain my year. 
Almost an adult but not quite, 
Almost a child but too old now
Such a weird age to be- 17. 

I do not know if this will remain, 
The confusion, the chills
I study the entire night
Yet my mind is somewhere else
Did I loose my golden years?
Are they still out there?
Am I there? Will I ever be there?
Such melancholy 
Such a weird age to be- 17. 

It’s almost as if the number is stuck
Stuck between the shiny bright 16, where the world is at your feet
And 18 where nothing is yet investigated
There’s the little 17, 
Timid, shy and awkward
What is it about? 
Such a weird age to be- 17. 

But its not all regret muffled by a birthday cake
Today I feel liberation. 
There is so much yet to see
So many friends yet unknown
Many opportunities yet untapped
And even if it were the end today
I wouldn’t feel entirely too bad
It was a good ride, one to remember 
Almost there but not quite. 
Such a weird age to be- 17. 
Such a weird age to be.
Such a weird age to be.

Goodnight snakers!